Falling into You

Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder


My rating: 4.5 of 5 stars


4.5 Painfully Healing Stars!


"I wasn't always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way."

This book is truly heartbreaking. There was a point when I almost didn't think I could take much more. My heart literally broke in two, espcially watching Nell try to cope at the loss of her first true love.

"I wanted nothing more than to climb into the box with him and quit breathing, find him in whatever came after life."

Kyle was the perfect boyfriend: caring, sensitive, romantic, and loving. He had their future all planned out, things were going to be perfect! But sometimes reality is painful and almost too hard to bare. But we keep living, replacing pain with a different kind of pain, sometimes physical and sometimes mental.

"Time heals all wounds, right? Well, maybe I've had enough time, and now I just need to move on, let go. Have something that makes me happy, after so long in misery."

Two years later, Nell runs into Colton (again), Kyle's older brother. They're in New York, she's going to school and he's running a mechanic shop in Queens. As a hobby and a passion, he performs at a bar and out on the streets. He plays beautiful music with his guitar and his sexy raspy voice melts my heart, and he catches hold of Nell's soul. They have chemistry and connect on a level that's both foreign and unexplainable to them. Knowing their both broken, they try to heal each other.

"Forgetting is the mind's way of helping you heal. Helping you move on. You did love him, Nell. He was your first. Your best friend before that."

Sometime's in death, people say everything happens for a reason. I don't believe that, so I don't believe that Kyle died so that Colton and Nell could be together. Fate would have to be one cruel bitch for that to be the reasoning behind his death. But sometimes I think shit happens, no reason or explaination, it just does. However, I am a believer that what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Colton and Nell used each other to chase away the ghosts of loved ones, bury the pain, and to try and move on.

"He doesn't fix me, doesn't heal me. He just makes life worthwhile. He helps me remember to breathe, shows me how to smile again. He kisses me, and I can forget pain, forget the urges to cut for the pain that erases the emotions."

I have to admit, I was almost glad it was over. There's only so much heartache one can feel, right? I was at my breaking point, if I had to suffer through one more episode I may just have broken down myself. But I was also disappointed how quickly it ended. I only hope there can be more for Colton and Nell. They were painfully beautiful together, they both were damaged but that's what made them perfect for each other.

"I'm not just falling in love with you, Nell. I'm falling into you. You're an ocean, and I'm falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are."

 

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